Let Me Introduce Myself

I am:

The council estate kid at the affluent school.

The naïve, down-trodden trusting fool.

The girl who started her period but had nobody to tell.

The girl in the strict house who longed to rebel.

The rebel who became the dreaded black sheep.

The girlfriend nobody wanted to keep.

I am:

The one who goes to the seaside and can’t stand to leave,

So keeps her heart there until she cannot breathe.

The day-dreamer, always lost in a daze.

The lucid night-dreamer, following insomniac haze.

Locked in eternal grief because bereavement took over,

Anniversaries of tragedy. Emotional supernova.

I am:

One who wears make-up as her warrior mask.

The woman with the questions she never dares to ask.

The once hopeless romantic who got cruelly crushed –

Love whispers and hopes: now silence; hushed.

The one who struggles with a smile on her face.

Look closely, there are tears you can trace.

I am:

Until her heart stops beating – the mother who will fight.

Don’t upset the children. This mother may bite.

The writer with dreams that never quite come true.

The one dressed in black that feels so blue.

Somewhat difficult, but if she feels your love –

She’ll do anything for you, go beyond and above.

I am:

Someone with many faults, this she does agree.

She should be so much more, this she can see.

Now agonisingly lonely and nothing can fill the hole.

Giving up trying to achieve any goal.

Scribbling away, trying to out the pain.

Hoping that, one day, she feels better again.